No kiss for me this year

Workin new years baby.

When you realize it's time to move on, but you are so comfortable with where you're at, what do you do?
What is best for you, or easiest I wonder? I'm feeling a little bit lost here,
stuck in this bliss that seems to never have existed... I'm just not sure what is right,
am I just reacting, or is this the inevitable coming to throw my ducks out of alignment?
Who I am is this terribly pressing question that I can't seem to answer, and I just feel so...
vulnerable?
I care way too much, that I do know. It's pathetic really, and I need to stand on my own two feet.
I constantly crave change, so is this perhaps my desire for excitement and chaos
rearing it's ugly head? Is it even ugly?
I'm just a little confused.

I'm tired of feeling like a bad person.
So I quit.
It's your move now...
Are you gonna play?

Holy fuck it's christmas eve.

What in god's name happened?
And how did it happen so quickly?
And why doesn't my boyfriend want to spend it with me?
Ass bag.
I am really quite upset.
Merry fucking christmas world.
Please enjoy my tyrannical rants.

Holidays and family

are sooo emotionally draining

Oh how true...

God Bless Corporate America...

For letting me stay in the hotel for FREE due to a very unexpected blizzard (Seattle blizzard)

Amen Amen.

And Happy Holidays from Caitlin and Marshall in room 503

Oh to sleep without end...

is glorious.

 

It is crazy how life works out...

Finding family,,.

Wild.

Genetics are crazy.

pasta at 3:20 am

New Neighbors Baby!!

Well, not new in any sense other than my new discovery of his living there

CRAZY

no, seriously though, thats fun,

I could use new friends that I don't have to make any effort for,

especially good looking friends!

YAH son!

I can

relate to this...

Me too...

Women.

They are obnoxious, loud bitches.

Note to self:

No more staying away from home at night,

I hate sleeping with out Marshall...

it's gross 

and highly unproductive as far as the sleeping aspect.

I love waking up next to him,

it's the best thing in the world.

I can't believe how lucky I am.

I'm a mean old bitch.

And my hands are hurty

Karma's a bitch

Simply a fact....

I have made so many poor choices in my life.

It's impressive when I think about it.

I'm not even complaining either... 

it is simply a fact.

Also,

Eddie Steeples is hot.

So I'm watching Conan--Douche bag.

Wow, He is amazingly funny!

What a pleasant surprise. 

I love pin up art.

Alright, last post tonight...

I feel this constant need to run away,

maybe to Portland

or San Fran.

Or maybe Brooklyn

or Some place Nice.

I get so bored of life,

and I have this desire to be unknown

to reinvent

and to learn.

I'm not sure how kids that still live with their parents getting engaged makes me feel.....

Who am I to judge though...

?

Marshall...

Emma and I,

Our tea date.

Hurray!!

I love the pink door.

Christmas tree, Oh Christmas tree

Which should come first,

consistency 

or love?

Tea and Novels...

I would do nearly anything for a cup of tea right now...

tea and novels

Would be bliss.

Ohh to be young.

I sort of wish I had taken the other path through adolescence...

because maybe then I would have grown up a little slower, 

maybe then I would have learned to do things the right way instead of my own way.

Maybe if I had just taken a moment to slow down, and stop being so adult

I would be care free.

A different person,

but care free none the less. 

I wouldn't smoke

I would have a tattoo of a butterfly on my lower back

I would go to parties and get trashed at college like all my friends from growing up.

My parents would still be taking financial responsibility for me,

I would have a normal job to look forward to

with a normal life

and a normal husband

and probably kids too

I would listen to bands like Death Cab and Dave Matthew's 

I would drink from keg cups

and go to frat parties

I would work out excessively. 

I would be really in to Jesus,

and go to religious gatherings....

I mean I guess I'm not wishing all of this shit on myself, but I think it probably would have made my life, and it's events much easier.

I would have been beautiful but forgettable. 

With everything to look forward to

and minimal brains or will to think outside the box

I would have made better choices. 

I would have done so many things differently if I had known how I've limited myself.

.....

Or maybe not.

I mean, all of the bad things aside,

I have everything.

I feel like a bit of both.

Craig Ferguson

is the sexiest man alive...

the things i love.

Marshall 

Gold

Earl Grey

Almond Milk

Vegans

Crafts

Cigarettes On A Brisk Night

Mist

Alliterations

A Lot As 2 Words

Correct Grammar

Bicycles

New Friends

Great Music

Community

Books That You Spend The Whole Day Reading

Sewing

Knitting For The Sake Of Knitting

Learning Something New

Understanding

Boys With Long Eyelashes

Scruffy Men

Lumberjacks

People Who Teach You New Things

Grand Adventures

Far Away Places

Staying Up All Night Talking

Colorful Ribbons

The Smell Of Plum Tree Blossoms In The Spring

People Who Care

Family Gatherings

Lace

Peonies

Nice Perfumes

Beautiful People

The Bus

Learning

Astonishment

Tattoos

Art Galleries

Libraries

Hot Chocolate

Having Friends Over For Drinks

Scarves

Dresses

High Heels

Rogue 

Lip Stick

Dogs

Vinyl

Swaying To Nice Music

Jazz

Rosy Cheeks

Holding Hands

Well Kept Secrets

Whispering

Sweet Things

Walks Late At Night

Floral Prints

Old Things

Rocking Chairs

Excitement

Being Genuine

Love.

Yes.

I am going to blog.

For Real this time.